An interesting discovery

Only then does the teeth really come into play. She asks each tooth/molar whether it experiences stress. And I find the outcome astonishing: My entire set of teeth experiences stress, but precisely the two teeth that seem to have a mind of their own are free of stress. Isabella explains that these two teeth have remained themselves. Wow, never thought you could look at it like that! How special!

Wow, that’s a really nice comparison! And I already think it’s going to be a super interesting twist!

She is surprised that almost all of my teeth are suffering. And she hopes that I would have enough time ;). In the end, the entire session lasted 2 hours including some chatting. That was not too bad, considering this comment 😅.

The last 4 molars on the top left experience the most stress in my mouth. We have work to do!

My body says we start with the 3.1.

As we both thought, we start with the tooth that grows upwards in my lower jaw. And then she starts investigating. Which ‘villager’ is chopping away at the 3.1? It turns out to be 7 teeth and molars: 1.1 and 1.5, 2.2. and 2.5, 3.3 and 4.2 and 4.3.

And then the search begins to find out for each tooth when the stress arose and what caused it, in order to then solve it. Phew!
Fortunately, Isabella is an absolute expert in Kinesiological Testing. She mumbles (asks softly out loud) all sorts of things to test, before she says something out loud to me.

The first tooth that influences 3.1 and that we are going to treat is 2.5

Isabella tests and indicates that it started when I was 38. That was in 2009 (I am from the end of November 1970). I don’t know immediately what was going on then.
She immediately asks further: does it have to do with my family or with the family I grew up in. It turns out to be the latter. I have to dig deep. Does an emotion come up in me? Do I feel something in my body? Somewhere I feel sadness coming up. I don’t know if that has anything to do with it. We look further. It turns out to have to do with my youngest brother. It also turns out not to be my sadness. It is his sadness. But I appear to be carrying his sadness!

Very special to me. At the end of November 2024, I did a ‘practice session’ with Isabella to get in touch with the deceased and see if they had a message. Then my grandfather Dijkstra came by and he did NOT pass on a family burden to his children, but I did decide to carry it. Unconsciously, that much is clear. As a child, I was clearly much more sensitive than I thought.

My brother once had an accident (self-inflicted) in which his front teeth were involved. He got implants for this. I have no idea when. Maybe it was a lot longer ago. His mouth has changed because of it. And certainly in recent years, I have noticed that my mouth is starting to look more like his mouth. I have often noticed that if someone has something special, I ‘get’ it too, I take it over. That can also be a saying or certain words. But sometimes also external things. Without me wanting it to. But when something really catches my eye in the other persong,  apparently it makes a big impression on me. And I seem to take things over and then it gets stuck in my system. The same as with Yanaica. (And I always thought that I was the ‘insensitive’ one of the three of us 😉).

Then she asks who needs something. It turns out that it is not my brother, but I need something. Oh dear, I think 😅.

EXCERCISE
Isabella would like to do an exercise with me. I close my eyes and she gives my soul something that I can give to Hilleen, at the moment that I ‘decided’ to carry the burden for him. I am allowed to feel my breath and see what happens to my feeling of sadness. It is precisely that feeling, going inward, that I find so difficult. I do not notice much.
But ok, I sensed that in the beginning I stopped breathing for a little while. And now it is a shorter high breath. I usually do not breathe deeply enough. Something that I know I can change, but I can only do that if I breathe consciously. That is far from automatic…

After the session I should be able to breathe to my toes, she says. But that is not possible yet. Now it is a matter of letting go more and more.

And then she tests and it turns out that the 2.5 no longer experiences stress. Yay, that’s the first one we’ve gotten stress-free! 1 Done, still a mouthful to go 😅

The second one that we treat is 3.6

Isabella starts asking and testing again (very softly) and she says that the stress at 3.6 started 38 years ago. I was 16. I think back: That’s when I got my first boyfriend, or actually my first real relationship. And yes, it turns out to be him. Within 30 seconds we have already determined the person here. Great! I seem to have something for him, but what?! The search begins. She asks all kinds of questions: Was I in love? Was he in love? Was he faithful? According to her, I am below him. I understand that: I was 16 and he was 21 and already had a job and an income. A 5-year difference at that age is quite a lot.
She asks if I already had more strength than he did then. Yes, I dare to confirm that. My life went quite well. I have actually been quite strong in my shoes my whole life. She thinks that I gave him my strength, or he took strength from me.

It turns out that he took something from me. And he used my power. I have no idea why or what for. And according to her, he used too much of me. And he never gave back what he took. And that’s not nice.

She tells me that if we’re working with him like this, it’s possible that he’ll get in touch sometime in the coming weeks. I haven’t had any contact with him since 1993. We still talk about him a bit. Isabella met him in 1993. We were both working in Corfu at the time and I had invited him. He had gotten in touch again when I was with my parents that winter. He had regretted ending the relationship. I had not regretted it, knowing I would have never become a hostess if the relationship had continued. But looking back, I think I did like being with someone. And I wanted to show him my new life. But on the very first day it became crystal clear to me that he no longer fitted into my life: I came home from work at 8:00 PM and it turned out that he had already eaten! Well, as a hostess you eat late. And in Greece, people eat late anyway. Those weird Dutch people who think you have to be at the dinnertable by 6pm at the latest, haha.

After this clear statement, she tests again: 3.6 does not experience stress anymore!

Apparently it was necessary to say this clearly again.
Apparently my ex-boyfriend still needs something. And Isabella indicates that she gives his soul something, so that he can give me back what he took. Very nice!

This tooth still took 10 minutes. Even though I knew quite quickly who it was.

The third tooth we tackle is 4.3

Isabella starts testing again. The issue with 4.3 started 19 years ago. I was 35 then and it was 2006. There was quite a lot going on then. The first thing I mention is that work was problematic at that time. It turns out that it was indeed about work.

And then it gets interesting. I find it difficult to find out how things were at that time. I thought that I had not yet returned to work and that hubby had worked that summer, but I discovered AFTER the session that I was already back to work in November 2005. What I find special about this session with Isabella is that talking apparently does a lot. Despite the fact that the facts are not correct. The energy is correct. I was the sole breadwinner from 2005 to 2017 and our youngest was 1 year old in 2005. That put a lot of pressure on me for years. Or in other words, I took that pressure on myself. And that stress from that has gotten into that tooth.

EXCERCISE
I get another assignment. I close my eyes And I have to see me and my husband in an egg (or bubble) with a bubble around both of us. That larger bubble is our relationship. With a connecting thread between the individuals. She asks: Are we the same size or not? No, we are not. I see myself bigger. It is necessary that we are both the same size, that we are both equally strong in the relationship. And I get a breathing exercise.

I breathe in everything I need and give back what he needs when I breathe out.

Isabella indicates that it would be good to do this meditation with him sometime. Where we sit opposite each other, hand on the other’s heart. And connect. Until we see each other as equally big.

In the meantime, we have also done this exercise together and agreed that if we notice that one of us is getting bigger or smaller again, we will repeat this.

It’s going well! We have also worked off the stress of this tooth!

The fourth tooth that gets treatment is the 4.1: a front tooth

That issue started in 1975. And of course I immediately say: The year my youngest brother was born. It turns out to be something I started carrying for him again!

ASSIGNMENT
I immediately get an exercise: I get to go back to the time when he was born. I place myself in a time machine and the Hilleen of today goes back to that time. Isabella says that I gave him something as a present. And he wants to give it back to me now. I know it immediately. Protection! I always felt that I had to protect him, even from his and my other brother. I regularly got the reproach: ‘You are not my mother!’
I get it back and accept it. From now on he can continue without my protection (after all, he will be 50 this year!!). Because I need that protection myself.

And with this the stress of 4.1 is solved again! How beautiful this is!

And then Isabella discovers that although we have only treated 4 teeth, all 7 teeth that we were supposed to treat are now stress-free! Yippee! Apparently some teeth shared a theme!

Current status

We are now 1 hour into the session, and we have made 7 teeth that wanted to influence the 3.1, stress-free! Great!

And then we start with 1.1: the front tooth that grows crooked

Which teeth are causing the 1.1 to be crooked? That’s another 9!! Wow! We’ve just discovered that some teeth suffer from the same themes, so we continue the session with good intentions.

We start working on 2 teeth at the same time: 4.4 and 4.5

This appears to have occurred before I was born! To be precise, in the last month of pregnancy. Do I know anything about the pregnancy?
As far as I know, my mother had a perfectly good pregnancy. Because I was conceived before they got married and my mother was an intern at the Academic Hospital in Groningen where my father visited her, she knows exactly when I was conceived. Because doctors don’t care about the conception, but look at menstruation, they said a different birthdate than my mother. According to the doctors I was born 3 weeks too late. But if you saw me as a newborn, then I was just right on time. Isabella’s youngest daughter was also born 3 weeks too late and she had to talk and talk, to be allowed to have a home birth. My mother didn’t say much about it, but she did say that the doctors were more concerned than she was. This could have caused her stress. Especially because I don’t know my mother any other way than that she (more or less) does what the doctors say.

In this case, it is my mother’s theme. It is not mine.

ASSIGNMENT
Another exercise is coming up. My mother and I are standing in a space that is exclusively healing. And I get to give my mother what she needs to feel loved. I know I am very good at giving love, so I gave her a lot, but also other things that I think she can use. We say goodbye lovingly and I am back in the here and now.

The teeth 4.4 and 4.5 have no anxiety anymore!

We continue, again with 2 teeth at the same time: This time 1.2 and 1.3.

This stress started when I was 7 years old. Well, that’s a given. Something intense happened then. I was staying with my pake (grandfather) and beppe (grandmother) for the Christmas holidays, and I was going home that day or the day after. My pake works in the delivery service, now it’s called parcel service. And he comes home for lunch. We eat a hot meal. He doesn’t feel well. And it gets worse and worse. My beppe accompanies him to bed and calls the doctor. And I feel her fear and sadness and also hear it in her voice. She keeps it together for me. When the doctor comes, an ambulance is called immediately, my grandpa has a heart attack. Unfortunately, I didn’t see him alive anymore. Not because he died that day. But I think they didn’t want their little girl to see him in pain. My parents didn’t have a car at the time, I think. In any case, someone was called and this man took me home. In the hospital, grandpa had another heart attack one or a few days later and died.

ASSIGNMENT
I get the exercise with the time machine again. I think that’s a nice exercise! I can now go back to the Hilleen who is 7 years old, to my grandpa and myself as I am now (54 years old). I get the chance to hug and comfort little Hilleen. But also together with grandpa. Wow, that’s special. Tears are flowing. How nice to have this farewell, after all these years! In their living room from back then, where I still remember so many details. In our family it was not customary to say ‘I love you’. I was now able to say that to him, and he to me ❤️

It should be clear, even after this exercise, 2 teeth are happy again! 5 more to go.

And then we can tackle no less than 3 at the same time: 3.2, 3.3 and 3.4.

This stress started with an event when I was 20. Phew, that took some digging. I describe some things and while I talk, Isabella keeps testing, and so we end up with an incident that arose after I met someone on a blind date. I saw him again after that. Maybe more often, I don’t remember. But I soon discovered that he was much too quiet for me. And he didn’t know enough. But he couldn’t accept that I didn’t want to continue. I think it was on a Saturday morning, I was still in bed and I was woken up because he was at the door. And he refused to leave. I finally called my mother, who lived nearby and she came walking over and started talking to him. And then I never heard from him again.

Isabella asks me: ‘Why did you call your mother and not solve it yourself?’. I lived on the ground floor of a 3-storey apartment building and my front door looked out onto another apartment building. I had a studio there. With a kitchen and private bathroom and such. And I found it very annoying that he was standing in front of the door. I didn’t want to let him in when he was in such a state. Or actually not at all. I was done with him. But I also didn’t want the whole neighbourhood to enjoy it, or actually, to be bothered by it.

Well, that’s what I am sometimes: keeping myself busy with others. |

ASSIGNMENT
I get another exercise. This time I get to send him away myself. Regardless of what the neighbours think. I did great and in the end the neighbours all stood outside clapping, because I stood up for myself. Haha! I had never seen this situation like this before 😀.

I find it remarkable that this, not really serious event, had an effect on 3 teeth! Phew! Fortunately they are all 3 stress-free again 😀

That leaves 2 teeth: 2.7 and 2.8 and we can treat them together

2.7 and 2.8 are at  the top left, the last two. Which, funnily enough, are both no longer there! And these two appear to be the most complicated to find out what the reason is, and to solve this.

The stress arose before my birth. Isabella tells me that before we arrive on earth, we choose our parents. But somewhere between the Source and landing in my mother’s lap, something went wrong. I didn’t want to go anymore. But they gave me a push! Something that doesn’t happen so quickly. Because then free will is gone.

I tell her that I am actually an ‘accident’. And my parents had to get married immediately by my mother’s mother. They got married in April 1970 and I was born 7 months later. And apparently I found that so bad as a soul thatI didn’t want to go to them anymore. I had to laugh heartily, seriously? Did I find that so terrible? Me, who does a lot of things that are non-traditional?!

According to her, I wouldn’t have gone without the push. But then I wouldn’t have been able to fulfill what was planned. So I had to.

Then Isabella changes tack and I get the question how I feel about my life.
Phew, I had a real inner crisis in December. I don’t like my life that much at the moment. And I actually never expected that there would be no money coming in Portugal and also that it would be so difficult afterwards. I had thought that my husband would pick up online healings, after all that had been his goal for 2020, to set up his own practice, and he could do that online too. He didn’t have much experience yet, but we both knew that energy work can also be done from a distance. I had hoped that he would take more responsibility in that. I had been responsible for income for so long.

But I still feel responsible. Because leaving was my choice. It was only in Portugal that I discovered the reason for that enormous drive. My drive has ensured that how everything has gone in the Netherlands now has not been disrupted by someone who has clearly been a fighter in previous lives.

But, Isabella says clearly, Leonhard and Yanaica both went with me. And they can both go back if they want. I can also go somewhere else. That’s right.

She asks: What do you need and from whom? Another difficult question. I sigh… I think I especially need self-love, love for myself and from myself. That’s where I think the key lies. I’ve done a lot of things in the past two weeks. I’ve taken another course from Mike Dooley, a course from Heart Math, various meditations, breathing techniques. And I’ve read a beautiful piece written by Michael J. Roads about how love can be in a relationship, if your self love is good. If you’re free from self-criticism and judgment. Then it’s not necessary to have that towards the other person. Beautiful. I’ve also made a new vision board and I’ve set the central question for 2025 for myself: What would love do?

According to her, self-love also involves forgiving yourself. But also that someone who goes with me takes responsibility for the choice to go with me.

Isabella feels that I am not forgiving myself. But I do not have to forgive myself. Everyone has free will.

Technically that is true, but in our case it was different: My urge to leave was so big, that I felt I had no choice, and I also knew: my husband has to come with me. And for good reasons, as I discovered later.
But he feels his life has been turned upside down by this and he feels like he has ended up in a different timeline. But I know that it was the right thing to do. That he had to learn that fighting is not the solution.

While talking, the stress of the last two teeth appears to have decreased, but something still lingers.

ASSIGNMENT
I get another exercise with the time machine. This time I am allowed to go back to my origin. And then end up in a soul pool to recognize my soul there. And see how it feels. Phew! A tough exercise for someone who is not a real visual thinker.

I recognize myself. And she asks if I want to talk to my soul. Or if someone is still missing? Huh, what?! Someone is missing, how?! I can’t think of that. Isabella says she can imagine that an older version of Hilleen can be there too. A Hilleen who is around 80. If we should invite her too. I can imagine that. After all, the 54-year-old Hilleen now also gives a different advise to the 20-year-old Hilleen. And actually an older person always reassures the younger one: ‘We don’t have to worry so much, everything is fine’.

Is the young soul happy to see me? Yes, I think so. I see an enthusiasm. And is that also the case when the 80-year-old Hilleen joins us? Yes.

The young soul now sees it for herself: Hilleen is doing fine and also with her soul plan. That is very pleasant for the soul, who needed that extra push to go to earth. But I also notice: with the 80-year-old Hilleen there is an extra dimension. It is clear and nice for the young soul to see that all is is good and everything is going according to plan, but the Hilleen of today also feels that everything is going according to plan. And that I don’t have to worry. That reassurance and the wisdom that we get from the elderly, I feel that.

Does the soul still have trouble coming to earth? No, it now has full confidence that it is good. Even though we don’t know the way in advance. It is always the right way. Because if you follow your feeling like I do, then nothing can go wrong. But my confidence, was missing. And that has now been restored!

How beautiful! And how special to have us 3 together. And to be able to embrace each other. That was really a great feeling. And we can be happy that we have acknowledged and recognized this. I say goodbye to the 80-year-old Hilleen. And then to the soul. And I come back to the now.

And after this exercise, the last 2 teeth are also stress-free! Yay!

OMG! What a journey! It is has been 1 hour and 50 minutes so far.

And we solved everything – for now

As a final excercise we do a little breathing exercise. Checking how deep my breathing goes now.

I don’t reach my toes yet. It stops somewhere above my knees.

For today, we have solved everything that can be solved. The breathing shows that there is still something in the way, but that is for another time. What we have done during this session may be integrated. Feel how it feels. What happens in the coming days, weeks?

I will keep an eye on it.

How to continue from here?

It’s already been 6 days. I recorded the session so I can listen again and write down in detail what happened. That was a wise decision, because I had really forgotten quite a bit!

I quickly noticed that a certain sound of the jaws cracking has disappeared. My mother also has that cracking. I wonder if that has disappeared for her too, after all, I also solve things for the whole family line. I haven’t asked her yet. I will, when it comes up.
And I notice that my teeth and molars feel better. Any irregularities in how they behaved and felt are gone. They are firm and feel good. And that is a wonderful feeling!

The first few days I also had my own pediatric dentistry test to see if my teeth are still stress-free. And I want to continue doing that on a regular basis.

Een van mijn overtuigingen was ook altijd dat anderen dat soort dingen als testen voor anderen goed kunnen. Maar ik kan het ook. En ik mag mezelf vertrouwen. Dus ik ga ervoor om dat steeds vaker, in elk geval voor mezelf, in te zetten. Het is zo’n waardevolle manier van testen om te weten of iets in dat moment bij me past of niet.

Poeh, al met al een heel lang verhaal. Knap als je het tot het eind hebt volgehouden. In elk geval heb ik dit voor mezelf ook opgeschreven, zodat ik nog weet, wat we toen hebben gedaan.

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