When I was seven years old, I was staying with my grandparents Dijkstra during the Christmas holidays. My grandfather had a heart attack, and a few days later he passed away in the hospital after another one.

I had a cousin who came to the Netherlands when she was four years old, but when she was ten and I was almost fourteen, she passed away. It was a shock!

I couldn’t make sense of it. She had already lost her parents, then she was adopted at the age of four, and then she still died at ten? I just couldn’t understand it. Once again, I was confronted with death up close. When I sat in my room and asked what the meaning of it all was, I felt the presence of my grandfather Dijkstra, and he let me know that she was safe, or that everything was alright. In any case, a deep sense of peace washed over me. And from that moment on, I knew with absolute certainty that death is not the end.

That understanding continues to deepen and shift even now. Recently I discovered that when we are awake, we are actually asleep—and when we sleep, we return to our natural state of BEING. I could never grasp this in the past. Now it’s starting to sound almost logical!

As the oldest grandchild in the Dijkstra family, I felt a certain pressure to perform. As a girl, I felt I had to prove myself even more: Was I smart enough?
I had a fine experience in primary school. After that, I went to what we call HAVO. Yes, I had to work for it, but I didn’t truly resist it, even though many subjects and much of the knowledge didn’t make sense to me.

The result aftter that: I completed a one-year private hostess training that prepared me for the travel industry and the business world, with no fewer than 23 subjects!

It wasn’t until I had children of my own that I became far more critical of the school system. I noticed how children were forced into a mold and were expected to become “average.” Kids who were too smart were expected to tone it down. And children who were behind were pressured to perform better. All despite promises that every child would learn at their own pace and level.

In the past 10 years, it has become especially clear to me that the higher the education, the less developed the ability for independent thinking seems to be! And the less people actually know about life.
And the essential things you need in order to live aren’t taught at all: finances, growing food, caring for animals, living in harmony with nature, using your inner guidance…

And in the end, all those “bright minds” rely heavily on skilled tradespeople—people who can actually do things with their hands. And yet that group is undervalued, both as human beings and in salary. Meanwhile, the “bright minds” can’t do those things themselves and uphold a system based on dependency.

For that reason, it was an easy choice to take our children, both of whom were at the start of their final year in HAVO, with us abroad. From life they learn how to truly how to live—that’s how I see it now. 😊

I find it funny that this one pops up for me — and that I genuinely see it as true — while at the same time I still fall into that trap myself. 😉

More and more I understand that a part of my original Self is here on Earth for a human experience, and that it simply needs a body for that. Nothing more, nothing less.
‘My’ children are not mine. ‘My’ husband is not mine. I have children, and I have a husband. I have hands, and I have a body. But THAT IS NOT WHAT I AM.

This also means that, in essence, nothing needs to be taken personally. Of course, that doesn’t give anyone permission to behave unkindly. At our core, we are love. And we are all connected. The more I realise this, the more compassion I feel for everyone. That doesn’t mean I’m friends with everyone — but it does mean there is no space for hatred, no matter what someone does.

The lighter you move through life, the more enjoyable your experiences will be. Because we attract what matches our frequency. So you might as well make it fun 😃, right?!

In March 2020, I initially wanting to shake everyone up a bit and tell them about the truth that was happening. But later that year, after we left the Netherlands and started a nomadic lifestyle, I came to the realisation that EVERYONE IS RIGHT — because we all see the world through our own lens. And for every point of view, evidence can be found to support it.

From that insight came the next one: everyone is here for their own experience.

Perhaps you are here to help others, through your death or trauma, to avoid certain choices. Feeling all emotions is something we can only do as humans, not when we return to our natural state as pure energy. And if we want to experience everything, chances are we will also be a perpetrator in one of our lives — just as at some point we will also be a victim.

This insight has given me incredible peace. I no longer feel the need to change people — I let them be where they are. It also means I give far less “advice,” because that comes from my own experience. And by sharing my experience, I would already be influencing the outcome for someone else.

Only after watching this podcast did I begin to understand how everything can be woven together. How it’s possible that when you resolve something in your own life, it can be healed for your ancestors, but also for your children and grandchildren.

From the perspective of time, this makes no sense at all. And although I had often heard that time doesn’t exist — and was willing to accept the idea — I never truly understood it. Today, 27 August 2025, is not the same moment as 3 October 1845. So how could I, here and now, do something that could still affect an ancestor living in that time?
I simply couldn’t wrap my head around it.

Reincarnation was something that, due to my Christian upbringing, was impossible — at least at first. But from around the age of 35, that belief began to shift. I started to realise that we don’t have just one life, but countless ones.

At Ten Have Publishers, where I worked from 2005 onwards, a book was published about a child who could remember his life as a pilot in the Second World War. He had died in combat, shot down. His sister from that life was still alive. The child visited her and even knew her nickname for him. It was fascinating — and it made me think more and more about my own past lives.

Until I saw a podcast from Next Level Soul about Quantum Jumping. Gaia Chinniah explained — for the first time in a way that finally clicked for me — that time does not exist and that all lives are happening in the now. She shared an example of a woman who couldn’t get pregnant in this life. Through a quantum jump, Gaia entered one of that woman’s other lives and discovered the source of her struggle. She resolved the issue there, which immediately influenced the woman’s current life (because everything exists in the now) — and indeed, the woman later became pregnant.

At last, everything fell into place for myself!

For a long time, I didn’t understand it when people said that being happy is a choice.

So many things happen, right?! How could I be happy about them if they weren’t exactly pleasant experiences? I really didn’t get it!

By a series of circumstances (which, of course, weren’t coincidental), the book Ask and It Is Given by Esther, Jerry & Abraham Hicks crossed my path in 2016 (thanks to Robert Bridgeman, who was an author at the publishing group where I still worked, and who hadn’t actually read the book himself 😅). I started reading it, and the content was so different from everything I knew that sometimes I could only read a few pages at a time.

After finishing the book, I wanted to know even more. I wanted to understand it fully. Luckily, there are tons of YouTube videos on virtually every topic — often based on someone’s question. Whether it’s about illness, infidelity, lacking a partner, parenting, money issues, or what else is out there in the universe — you can find explanations from Abraham on nearly everything. After endlessly watching, it slowly started to sink in. And now, I can often answer questions myself when I hear them. It’s incredibly empowering!

This knowledge made me realise that there’s no point in crying for hours, or being angry for hours, days, or even weeks over something (which I definitely used to do with Leo). Many people disagree with this, believing it means bypassing your emotions. But I followed the advice and experienced that it really works. Of course, you can show your emotions, but you shouldn’t stay stuck in them. Your natural state is love and happiness — and you can choose to return to that state, so that you can attract more of it. Incidentally, the positive counts many times more than the negative. So you don’t even need to be positive more than half the time to attract positive experiences. Even 20 minutes a day of consciously choosing beautiful thoughts can make a world of difference!

Since then, my life has changed. I enjoy it so much more. Many people prefer to blame others and circumstances. I prefer to be in control and take responsibility — another theme of our time.

I can also let go much more in my relationship and allow my partner to make his own choices, choices that aren’t mine. And most importantly, to let go. Let go of children, who have their own path here on Earth and must learn. Let go of the idea that my partner belongs to me. He is a free person who can choose. And it doesn’t say anything about me if he were not to choose me. Everyone is free to follow their own path and learn along the way. My “challenge” then is to maintain my own boundaries.

For a while, we even discussed the idea of an open relationship. But we both came back from that idea (without a third or fourth person being involved). We concluded that, perhaps in an ideal world, it could work, but it’s still too deep in us to handle it — and that’s perfectly fine.

There are no wrong choices. It just has to fit me.

I discovered early on that so much in life is connected to money. When I started working at Rabobank at nineteen (because they still had a travel agency back then, where I really wanted to work), I learned that I wasn’t allowed to join the pension fund. I hadn’t completed four years of further education after high school, nor had I gone to university. I simply started working young — and I assumed that meant I would also retire young. When they told me I could only participate from age 23 onward, I began to see through a lot of things, and I stopped believing in the pension system altogether. It became clear that I would have to take care of that myself.

In the year 2000, a lot happened regarding health. On one hand, my husband became ill, and the hospitals couldn’t find anything — so officially it didn’t exist. At the same time, we had just welcomed our first daughter, and suddenly I began reading about the National Vaccination Program and what it might do to healthy babies. How severe are the diseases they’re vaccinated against, and what are the actual risks for children (and adults)? During that period, we made huge leaps in understanding how the healthcare system works. The child health centers seemed to have one main purpose: guiding people along the vaccination path. And we saw how nutrition could be healing — we saw it in my husband. Through alternative medicine, we discovered what was wrong with him (a metabolic condition that regular medicine couldn’t detect, because they can only test for a specific variant — and if it’s not that one, they’ll never know which one you actually have!).

I discovered that research is often sponsored by companies that already have a solution.
I discovered that if you want a certain outcome in a study, you can always steer it that way. It depends on who funds it and what the financial interests are.
I discovered that being healthy doesn’t generate enough profit — being sick and creating pills does.
I discovered that doctors don’t study health; they study medicine.

And I began seeing more patterns in taxes and banking as well. A government undervaluing the country’s currency, leading to massive inflation after transitioning to the euro. It fits the plan: people must have less, because then they are more easily influenced. If they can take care of themselves, they cannot be controlled.

In short, over the years I discovered that so‑called “conspiracy theories” are not theories at all, but the harsh truth. I’m not saying every theory is correct, but they are labeled that way to frame people who think differently — so that those who believe the media assume that this group is crazy. They’re not. That group has the ability to think for themselves and truly investigate. They don’t look at what’s written in newspapers. They examine entirely different kinds of facts.

That’s why I started seeing the importance of doing things differently. I saw how the blockchain technology used in crypto could be a perfect opportunity for an alternative economy. But unfortunately, we also discovered that a lot of fraud happens there as well. Sadly! We haven’t yet found a good working alternative system, but we continue searching. That things can be different is clear. We’re going to crack that code!